珍惜眼前人

最近听了一些梁静茹的旧歌，发现她的歌曲挺适合疗情伤。其中最爱‘会呼吸的痛’和‘第三者’。

身边的几位友人在感情路上碰到了触礁，感叹感情的脆弱，说变就变。。。

感情道路上，一切看似顺心如意，是值得雀跃；不过，背后隐藏的，可能是更大的考验，等待我们一起携手度过。很多人对自己和伴侣没有信心，换来的是无尽的眼泪和心碎。

感情的坚固性，无法以长短来衡量，眼见的例子就有几位。究竟，是命运作弄，还是人为呢?

停笔前，笔者告诉自己：珍惜眼前人，努力经营得来不易的感情。

Dressing Room and Home Nursing

These two days I went through 'Dressing' and 'Home Nursing' postings in Primary care medicine, saw a few patients who make me so sad after seeing their conditions.

It is normal to see a lot of patients waiting to have their dressing or take off their suture (Suture to off/STO) in dressing room. I am a clumsy people, simple steps of cleaning wounds would take me a long time. My dad told me before that I am not going to be a good doctor if I even cannot console them when they are in pain or uncomfortable. I had the chance to clean the wound on finger for my dad at home last time and of course I did it so badly. It made me feel ashame of myself as a medical student.

Yesterday, I started to clean a carbuncle wound under nurse's supervision. Luckily, the nice uncle did not complain of my poor technique. However, the nurse commented that I should not too nervous and fast since I was new yet. If not, patients would not reduce their pain and suffer in the end. As a future doctor, I should not cause any harm to patients even I can't help them so much now. Here, I feel very sorry to uncles and aunties who is 'unlucky' to be taken blood by me last friday. My lack of experience cause some of them had to be suffer from the needle twice. :-( I know they have the rights not to be taken blood by medical students unnecessary. The only solution for this problem is.......I have to practice more and gain experience. Practice makes perfect mah...

There are a lot of diabetic patients. Mostly are due to the diabetic foot problems and have amputation of their toes or whole foot. There were burn and post-operation patients too. This was also my first experience of seeing severe bed sore wound. Some of them are in pain, some are on wheel chairs.

The most severe I saw during yesterday morning is a chinese elderly man who is paralysis. He is unable to move or talk and on tracheostomy. He had a big bed sore and I heard that he was taken care by people in nursery home before he was brought back by his daughter. I feel pity of him (instead I feel pity for everyone who is sick) because he has to suffer from all those pain and can't even talk out his true feeling. In my mind, everyone should have the rights to be healthy and enjoy their life. However, after practical in hospital for more than one year, this make me feel that sometime life is miserable and unpredictable.

Today went to 4 patients' houses for home nursing. To my surprise, we also went to the house of that patient. He seems to have a lot of other medical problems. Luckily, his daughter takes good care of him, learning the methods to clean his wounds, reduce the pain and complications he would have and try to get any medication he needs. Deep in my mind, I am respect the family members who are so patient to take care ill patients. This reminds me of the strong power of family support. :-)

New Moon

Few days back, when I went to shopping in Midvalley, I saw a series of book in a book store. It is Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer. Actually I only watched the movie 'Twilight' few weeks ago, after my supplement exam, although the movie was quite long already.

I still remember I watched together with my bf in the midnight. He told me that he is quite interested after he saw the trailer of 'New Moon' before that. Previously I heard a lot of good comments about the movie. However, I did not have chance to watch it. It has been quite a long time for me do not watch a 2 hour movie since I was too tension preparing my exam. I did enjoy the movie so much and can't believe that i like it since then.

While i considered to buy the book, my friend told me that our another coursemate has the collection of this book. She adviced me to borrow from him rather than spent my own money. After back to hostel, I get the book one, Twilight from him. It is translated into mandarin, which is more suitable to me, haha... This is because I am chinese-educated until secondary school and I really LOVE mandarin so much. I have to admit that my english standard is very low. Most of my English only get some improvement since I enter Matriculation. Thanks to my friend who practice English with me during that time and I did learn a lot from them.

I am addicted to the books now and also looking forward the coming 'New Moon' movie. My friend told me that it will be on the end of November. Will have the chance to see the handsome Edward Cullen again. hehe....

And my mood is better compare to previous few days, after understanding what I worry about is not exist at all. =)

Thinking too much....

Looks like i already abondon my blog here for quite a long time. I only post my blog or express my feeling here when i feel down, this is just like my rubbish bin, very sorry ya...

Today i post another post here, it is quite obvious that my mood changes again. Actually, lots of things happen starting from september till now. I finshed my supplement exam and in the end I made it!!!

Entering phase 3B, I told myself i should be more hardworking and do not let the mistake happen again. Really, i did my promise for first week. After that, my bad habit comes back again. I start watching drama, 攻心计&下一站幸福. Especially the 2nd drama, it is a love story. I know it is not reality at all, but i still addicted to that. I really cham lo, keep dreaming...

The story line is quite similar to novel, and easy to predict the ending. However, I like Vanness very much, especially in ice-skating and also the court part. (for those who watch before will understand what i mean, hehe)

In fact, last few days I was totally in a bad mood, without any reason. Actually, i think this is due to some changes in my friends. I felt i am left behind. When i need someone to talk with, nobody can accompany me. They are busy with their own stuffs. Somore, my dear roommate takes her morning flight to Taiwan today. She will be there for 26 days. My other best friends are also going to go back their hometown this weekend after they have finish their own elective projects. In conclusion, I will be alone for quite a long time here, with less and less who I can believe to talk with because i used to share them my problems before this. I am not sure whether I can tahan for so long period...I totally can't live alone. haiz...

For 2 nights before, my tears are almost uncontrolled a few times when I think of my 'pity' situation. My dear roommate found out my abnormal behaviour and tried to counsel me, asked me not to think too much, everything is just fine... yaya, I hope I will be normal after few days.

Continue my long long story after my mood is better after this.