DEATH

I could only say that we can't predict our lifespan. We have planned a lot what we are going to do in the future, with the good career, spending times with beloved family...It is good to plan before we proceed to do any decision. But, did we think of if there is some unexpected events interupt your well-planning plan for your future?

It was two years ago when we received a shocked news, that one of our nice senior had passed away in a car accident when he was on his way back to Seremban. This was really unexpected and we even thought that it was an April fool joke. He was in his housemanship that time and he also had a stable relationship with his girlfriend. A motor-vehicles accident had destroyed all these happiness with sadness remaining.

Besides, clinical posting in hospital could open up my mind and makes me think a lot too. There was a young couples in the ward that the husband was diagnosed to have end-stage lung cancer which is very extensive. All of the tumour cells spread his whole body within a few months. He was very thin and cachexic when we met him. Researches showed that there is relationship between smokers and lung cancer, but this pity uncle did not smoke at all. How come he could suffer from lung cancer too??

If someone asks me,

'do you afraid of death?'

I could just answer them the answer is 'NO'

'But, I just want to be alive so that my family members and person I love would not feel sad.'

'We have to appreciatate what we have now and grab golden chances to prevent we will regret later'

Actually I learnt this lession 3 years ago, from one of my best friend, and I am glad that I do not miss anything that I like since then.

Just do it what you think you are right, don't wait till tomorrow because you will never predict what will happen the next.

S.H.E - 你不会

作词：姚若龙 作曲：郑楠 编曲：吕绍淳

第一次拥吻以前 我们找不到语言
但听见彼此灵魂多渴望永远
贴心后嘴角的甜 摩擦后眼角的咸
一起 懂爱和真爱的差别

你送的杯子里面 还装着温热感觉
你给的每个纪念都排在床沿
相机是牵手两年 围巾是东京五天
戒指 是又哭又笑的道歉

我不相信 你心中现在她最美
你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎
我不相信 你口中会讲出后悔
你不会你不会你不会不心疼
我拒绝被看见的泪

当初被激烈反对 你安静却没妥协
对我更好来瓦解别人的偏见
我生气失踪几天 我倔强口不择言
是你 紧抱我到情绪沉淀

我不相信 你心中现在她最美
你不会你不会你不会把我们的爱踩碎
我不相信 你口中会讲出后悔
你不会你不会你不会不心疼
我拒绝被看见的泪

我不相信 走来的幸福在脱轨
你不会你不会你不会留残酷让我面对
我不相信 累积的回忆都损毁
你不会你不会你不会舍得
我流一滴像乞讨 的泪

~喜欢这首歌的旋律+感人的歌词~
支持SHE最新专辑 SHERO

妇产科

刚看完一部韩国电视剧，是关于医院妇产科里，孕妇们所可能面对的问题以及准父母的困扰。

当初纯粹属于好奇才追看，没想到就迷上了，在此推荐于有兴趣的朋友。

故事大纲：《妇产科》以一家地方医院妇产科为背景，通过描写医生、准夫妻等不同的人物面貌，讲述了现代社会的爱情和婚姻以及和怀孕相关的各种小插曲。剧中，女主角徐惠英医生，在即将晋升为教授的时候，得知自己意外怀孕的事实，从而陷入深深的苦恼。性格冷静的徐惠英面临堕胎、自己的怀孕、分娩相关的一系列现实性矛盾，并为此而苦恼。

P/S: 有些画面很感动，请事先自备纸巾。:P


现实生活：数年前，与友人约定一起进入医学系，未来一起成为妇产科医生。当时我们都是因为喜欢小孩，抱着单纯的理想。


无奈，这些约定已无法如计划进行了。我们俩各分前程，不懂她是否还怀着当年的抱负呢？在医院实习了一年多，了解自己的能力，我自认没信心未来可以朝那方面发展，而且听到的评语通常是：

‘妇产科很忙的，通常没有时间照顾家庭’

‘责任很重大，因为承担的是两个人的性命’

‘稍有任何差错，很容易被控告’

虽然如此，我还是需尽我的本分，好好完成最后一年的课程。未来不管在那一领域，为大众服务，拯救生命才是最重要。Cause no harm。(不过,不可否认我还是特别对这一方面较有兴趣，嘻嘻。。。)

Parents and Family

Today clerk a patient with leg swelling. I am now not focusing on his main problem, but the issue that he suddenly raised up just now.

Instead of I questioning of his condition, he also asked me about my family. During our conversation, he mentioned about a chinese new year advertisment by Petronas few years back, about parents and family.

The scene was about a few aunties sitting in front of old folks home, chatting in Hokkien. All of them told to each other how clever and how rich thier children earn each months. In the end, there was only the son of the quietest and poorest aunty come to visit his mother.

The aunty said this before she left.

'My son comes to fetch me already. He likes to bring me TOGETHER anywhere they go...'

The advertisment ends with the jealousy and sadness of the aunties who show off about their children's achievement just now.

The only 10 minutes short story brings a lot of meanings inside there. I am sure that everyone will be touched or suddenly realises their mistakes after watching this.

The uncle used this example to advise me not to forget about our parents because we are brought up by them, since we were small. Many young generations forgot their parents after they works or marry. He had reminded me that I have not gone back hometown for almost one month. Each weekend, I always tell them that I am too busy, got a lot of classes and no time to go back home. Sometimes, I only go back after 3-4 months, although the journey just takes 4 hours.

'You can choose your gf or bf again, but you only have one father and mother. So must appreciate them'

After the conversation, I realised that it's time to express our love to our parents, not just physically. A simply phone call or visit wouldn't spend us too much but these are very meaningful to my old parents who miss us so much.

I love you, daddy & mummy~

Coffee

I am totally addicted to coffee right now. Everyday, I miss the taste of coffee and I just can't help myself to continue drinking coffee.

Back to last few years before I entered medical school, I did not drink coffee at all. Instead I still managed to study and do my daily activities without taking an afternoon nap. I am totally admired my determination that time.

Right now, my addiction to coffee become worse and worse after days. I must drink a cup of coffee to make me awake whole day. Probably influenced by my roomate as well. I told her that I will get palpitation (increase heart rate) and insomnia once I drink coffee. Meanwhile she likes to drink coffee so much. After so much stress and less time to study, I started my experience drinking coffee, Nescafe 3 in 1.

Out of control, I am totally addicted to this kind of 'caffeine drug' without I could realise it. If coffee was out in one of my day, I will sleep and drowsy for the entire day. The amount is increasing. Oh no, I am dependent of coffee already!!! It is almost similar to drug addict.

I tried to get rid of this 'bad' habit before, not totally, but at least reduce it. In the end, I should admit I am not strong enough to fight with the excitement and effects of coffee. It makes me feel happy and enjoy my days. The feeling after having a cup of hot coffee in the evening is very nice. =)

Hope I wouldn't resistant to coffee after prolonged exposure to it. hahaha....

Sing K

Last week midnight I went to sing K in Greenbox with friends and to celebrate my bf's birthday.

I have not been in Karaokae for quite a long time, more than 6 months. Compare with my records 2 years ago, I was one of the regular customers during that time.

I have to admit that I do not sing much. Most of the time I just sat at side and listen to my friends' singing. I have some kind of inconfidence of my own voice that I always think that I can't sing well. In fact, it proves my thoughts are correct too.

Although don't sing well, I joined choir team since secondary school and also in university. It's hard to believe right? My friends told me before that my problem is not on my voice, just I do not sing with the correct methods. I am not as bad as others who does not sing to the correct key as well. (which make me feel better then)

I found out that some of my friends can sing very well. No matter how hard the songs are, they can sing like a professional singer. Their voice are so comfortable and nice to listen. Anyway, I do enjoy listening everytime.

Hope to have chance and singing with friends in the future, and I would able to sing better next time.

帅哥

一个人的外貌真的那么重要吗？美丽俊俏的脸孔的确吸引人， 还可能会让他们因此而得到不少好处。

今天上了一堂课，导师是个从外国留学归来的帅哥。之前第一次上他的课，不可否认，我被他那斯文的外貌给吸引，今天也是如此。=P

其实俊俏及美丽的定义，因人而异，每人都有不同的审美观。我就是较欣赏这一类的男生，但请别以为我在发花痴，纯粹出自于欣赏。

之前观赏电视节目，很多女生为了欣赏帅哥，会一涌而蜂；现实生活中，我也遇见了真人真事。有同学竟然为了这位导师，出席他们无需出席的一堂课。

回归正传，他的却不只有样貌，知识与自信让他更有魅力，让在场的每位同学顿时对他佩服不已。本身并不明白这堂课的内容，但在短短的一小时内，我茅塞顿开。

结论是：欣赏帅哥，是每个女生的本性，看你是否那个帅哥罢了。。。

SPM results: 5 years before and after

Today is the important for every former Form 5 student because they will know the results of SPM after months of effort. So does my brother.

I told him last week this news once I know the date through the phone. I even made a joke that I hope to change my spectacles after knowing his results, since he always creates some surprises for us in his unexpected exam results.

Waiting his phone call whole morning, finally I made a call to him. He was busy that time. But I can feel his happiness over there.

'How many you get?' that's the first sentence when he answered.

'8'

'Huh? Really?'

Shocked...

'I get B+ in my Biology and Moral, the others are A+, A and A-'

'Congratulation!!! Really so surprised you will score so well'

Previously I always scold him for not studying and keep playing computer game, even my dad also feels so worry of him. But, the results prove that not neccessary to study all the time only can score well. He has clever while I only have hardworking.

Thinking of 5 years ago, I get marvellous results in my SPM too. I managed to enter Matriculation and UM medical school after that. All of these happened just like a routine. I never think of if someday I failed in continuing all of these, what will happen to me?

If I did not get a place in Matriculation, will I continue my study in Form 6?

Will I still choose in Biology or change to Physic?

If I do so, my future will change totally... I would not meet new friends here and my thinking will be different as well. I may not choose to study medicine in university anymore.

Back to reality, we can't go back to the past. All of these were just memories. There was no so many 'what if' for me too. I cannot always live in the memory that I was still the top student in the school. Life goes on. I have to admit I am not excellent anymore. What I can do now is trying my best in strive for the best.

Congrates to my brother again. You are our prouds. =)

Dark skin

Today, when I clerked a Malay patient in the ward, he threw me a question:

'Are u mixed of Siamese?'

'No la, I am Chinese, but I am get used when people ask me this question.' answered with a sweet smile.

I know if my name tag didn't show my name, he properly will think that I am a Malay.

'Oh.. Then are you from Penang?'

'Ya, how do you know that?' surprised

'I can guess from the way you talked to me.'

Since I was small, I don't have fair skin as a chinese should have. Not just due to I like outdoor activities, instead, I stays indoor more often. Think properly, genetic could play some factor in my darker skin colour.

My daddy has dark skin too, caused mainly by his job who exposed alot under sunlight. If I go out together with my dad, sure the strangers will have the impression that we are Malays.

It was not a new experience to me when strangers spoke malay to me, while both of us are Chinese. Since secondary schoool or during my part time job after SPM, I met these situations always. Most of the time, I chose to answer them in Mandarin. What I get after that were their surprise and embarrassing facies. Especially when I kept super short hair that time, I like to make a joke that I came from Indonesia, working as Indonesian maid. Each time I go out, I must bring my IC to prevent I am treated as illegal immigren.

After keeping long hair, this situation does not improve much. The better I was told I looks like a singer, who is also a Malay. =.=lll On the street, I was still asked in Malays by Chinese uncles and aunties. Lecturers, not matter Chinese or Malay like to throw me the same question:

'Are you Siamese?'

'No, I am pure Chinese.'



This is my standard answer.

Change to mature but unchanged friendship

Yesterday night suddenly have a chatting session with my dearly roommate about our life in UM in the past.

We talked about our first, second and third year university life. Realised that we have changed over this 4 years. Become more and more mature because all of us had went through some events that taught us to think and grow up.

Many pleasant memories were brought back from deep of my memory bank. All of my coursemates who were initially strangers, have developed good friendship starting from our first year. Some of them even more than friendship. ^^

During first year, we were divided into 3 different hostels. However, we still had some interaction among hostels just because we studied together. We did alot of crazy events in a large group, outing for movie during orientation weeks, conquer 20++ seats in the cinema, some jokes that make us laugh always when mentioned it. Everyone like to call each other 'labmate', 'dissection hallmate', 'PBLmate'....All these seems make us even closer. Sometimes, we had gathering in anyone's room, updating about the latest news happen among us. So, there is no secret in Medic Faculty. Our friendship was so innocent and true.

Time passed and we are getting more busy in our study. However, we do have some events or celebrations when we are able to do it. Hope that our friendship will last long even after we graduate. :-)

My 15 days of CNY

It's March of 2010! The Chinese New Year has over and I have entered my final year without I realised it for more than 1 week. :-(

I am in Medicine posting as my first start of final year medical school life after CNY. For your information, there are alot of subspecialties in medicine ward: Cardiology, Chest, Gastroenterology, Neurology, Haematology, Renal, Endocrine, Rheumatology, Dermatology.... All those we should try to master it within the duration of 2 MONTHS only!!! Now, you will know why do I don't like medicine compare to other postings. :-P

When a medical student enters final year, he or she will be highly expected to know than before and even at the level of HO because they are going to be part of them just after one year later. We are supposed to know how to get a good history and physical examination, get to appropriate investigation and know how to manage our patient. We are not longer forgiven if we even don't know how to clerking a patient, not to say examine the patient.

Finish mentioned about my study, I have an enjoy CNY and my last weekend anyway.

2010 Chinese New Year

First family photo taken during CNY (All of us in the red, :-))

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I went out for a gathering with my good friends in Hard Rock Hotel, Penang island on 4th day of CNY

please look at the pose 4 of us did, actually we were posing according to the statues at the back (creative, right?)

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I went to Banting on the last weekend, and to my surprise they are going to Malacca and I joined them. I was interested to visit Malacca for years and I never thought that I will go there so suddenly without any sign, hehe. 6 of us went there by 2 cars, overnight in Peichean's house.

This is the prove that I went to Malacca, a typical buiding there

Photos would explain everything. Most of the photos are around the food in Malacca (which some of them I have excluded in this post). In fact, we went to many places to just eat, eat and eat only. So, I think I have increased weight more than 4 kg within these 15 days of CNY. =.=lll It's time for me to do some exercise.

In the end, I want to show a photo that make me so proud.

I learnt to solve the magic cube completely within 2 days last CNY, taught from my brother. hehe.