无奈

一段感情没有绝对的是与非，这件事任何人都懂。。。

当你真正踏入一段感情，分手了，谁对谁错，没人可以定夺。。。

信任，体贴，曾经是我对你的承诺，我依然记得。。。

当年的我们是多么的畅所欲言，信任彼此；如今，你连话都懒得跟我讲，说是我无法了解你的思想。

我投入了那么深，你说我变了，不再是你的小女人。

你的大男人主义，曾是我仰慕的，最后也变成了我的恐惧。。。担心自己达不到你心目中的要求，使劲全力想要满足你的要求。你认为我没尽力，我无话可说了。

你生我的气，挂我电话，转头就走，可有想过另一头的我多么无助吗？

发生了种种意外，是我从没预料的。内疚十分，再道歉有用吗？是该找办法补救。。。不语，是为了让彼此冷静，你却认为我不诚恳，无心道歉，但那也不是我们俩想要的结果。

眼泪已落下了无数次，心扉一再而三的被刺痛。。。

无可否认，我也是糊涂。是我先变了？真的？还是你也变了？

你或许没错，是我们经不起考验。

我们不再沟通，任由误会产生越来越大。最后，彼此的忍耐极限到了，也是说再见的时候了。

期待已久的台湾之旅，却成了心碎之旅，无奈。。。

HIM

This is the first time I write about him, also will be the last time.

Ended a relationship of nearly 3 years, I know I am hurt. A lot of quarrels before this, but mostly I just can keep quiet. I was a coward, dare not to fight, no rights to do so too.

He is the man that I loved, I never have this kind of strong feeling before. I jump into it following my feeling, even though there were some discouragements. I thought I met the right person, who is suitable to me. Learnt a lesson, I tried to grab what I want and don't want give up.

Time flies, a lot of quarrels happened. 'Chances' were given once and once, the answers given were always:

'You never appreciate the chances...'

'We can't communicate anymore....'

'You are slow, brainless and passive...'

'If you continue like this, I will dump you...'

Who wouldn't feel hurt after listen to this? Anyone will understand my feelings? Anyone listen to my needs and wants? Tears dropped for countless times.. I have lost myself, my stands. Luckily I still have family and friends beside me right now.

Listening to love songs repeatly, learning the meaning of love.

Can't imagine when does my wound will heal completely, but for sure, it will have big and ugly scar deep inside my heart.