No mood + crazy thought

Having no mood to study now...

I had just finish my 3 exam papers yesterday and my mood is affected by my performance in the exam. My mind is very complicated with lots of feeling. Scared? Worry? Sad? I am not sure, could be combination of all those 3.

Medicine is a very tough course to take, many things have to sacrifice in order to manage your time and do well in this course. I have regreted because of wasting too much time during my first year and did not have a good basic in medicine. Now, everything become tougher and I am barely to catch up the progression of study.

Before entering medical school, I had the childish thought that everything will be fine if I get hardworking. However, I forgot I have to face other problems in family, friends and relationship. Sometime I am tired when thinking of the unsolved problems and affect my mood to study. In the end, my study get affected also. (P/S: I am not blaming the problems affect my studies, but I cannot say that there is no relationship at all. =P)

I think I am really crazy already, type all those rubbish here. Just suddenly want to express my feeling here. hehe.

Finally, really hope that I can get pass in my final exam, in all exam papers, and including all of my coursemates